4 and half days

Its very inspiring to see how people can be so positive on things. 

I intended to do the same. 

But bad fate never fails to get in along the way of your good intentions.

There is a quote that says,

" There are no bad days , just bad judgement"

And, I believe it.

But I also believe that how positive we want to be, negative effects do contribute, for balance.

There are certain issues in my life that I have constantly feel negatively about. 

3 months ago I wanted to change that. 

And I tried.

 I yearned the support from the people that I truly love,
upon having these good intentions on the things that I have negative thoughts on.

That's the saddest part, they did not help.

They thought I was pushing myself into something that I did not want to do.

But ,as I said,I wanted to change. 

I was ready for the big leap.

I even confess to them about the changes 
and that I wanted their support.
Even a touch or a word of wisdom would have help.

But it didn't happened.

Positive people are nice. Trying to be one is hard.

So how is it for one wants to become positive?

Do we have to wait for the right time? What if it won't matter any more.

But if there's someone already wanting to be one,is good. 

But some encouragement would have make it easier.

A little note for myself:

God has been gracious.

For I have live today blissfully and should be grateful for His love.

I pray that I will never lose that.

I will always love you. 
xoxo