Surviving on whsipers

5-days in Akademi Kenegaraan for training. 5 hari yang penuh keselesaan

Lately surviving life can be a struggle.
Accepting few unwanted facts in life can be a huge struggle to adapt.
There are moments where I thought to myself to just open your mind and let it be. 

To accept and allow life to unfold by itself. 

To believe concretely that God always has better plans for you.
To know that escape was never an option as this is your life. 

 I'm still in the midst of the processing to this mind settings.

However there are times when you feel like breaking down after handling so much crap,
the positivity will starts radiates inside you and my heart will say,
you've been through this crap a million times reena,
in the end its all going to be ok.

Then I lift my head up and face with the same crap again, 

my mind will says, ni semua sekejap je ni. 

This too shall pass like any other drama before this.

And when I'm facing all of this sadness alone,
deep down I knew that God has sets whats best for me and  its for my own good. 

It may not be for now but it will be someday.

Cause you know that God never make mistakes. 

Kita harus yakin dengan ketentuan-NYA. For this I will get up dan kuatkan semangat lagi.

At times when I feel I could not bare much longer, I would whisper to myself,  

Tuhan takkan uji hamba-Nya lebih dari kemampuan hamba itu sendiri. 

You can survive this. Take a look around you,

there are people who has suffer worst than you do.

Then there are times you ask yourself, why does God put you in this path 

when He knows you'll fail in the end.

You know the answer to this. Ada hikmah disebalik nya. 

There's always a silver lining in everything that happen. 

It might be for the experience or may be to learnt few life lessons. 

You know its for your own good.

But after awhile, 

when the whispers start to ceased and all you can see
is yourself as a smiling puppet yang menangis dalam hati.

A puppet that has continuously pray for ketenangan hati.

I know that God has always be with me and has help me tremendously. Masya-Allah.
But I just wish I could just go on and become stronger than this.

Thank you so much for dropping by and read this drappy story.
XOXO,  Love you

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